When you face heartbreaking circumstances in life, how does your heart react?
My first reaction is anger. I admit, I put up a wall in my heart, refusing to even turn my thoughts to God or think of his unfailing love and soverign purposes because frankly, I just want to be stubborn and try to figure it out on my own.
When this passes, the tears flow and my heart realizes I have absolutely no hope, joy, peace, or purpose unless I cry out to God at that very moment, turning my heart back to Him.
The amazing thing is he accepts this wayward heart back each time, this heart of little faith, this heart of broken vows.
How do people face this life on Earth without the hope of Jesus? Without feeling His presence, knowing his faithfulness?
I do not know what will happen in the next moment, yet God knows every detail of life, and these plans are for good, not to harm, to bring a hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
We, as fragile humans, just will never understand the ways of God. This God who created every twinkling star, every colorful bird, every grain of sand, every dazzling sunset also made us. He knows how many hairs are on our head (Luke 12) and every thought before you think it. (Psalm 139). How amazing to know He loves us with unfailing love, enough to offer us His gift of grace, which we are so unworthy. (Romans 8:38, Ephesians 2:8, 4:7)
Who am I to question God?
Yesterday, when I was going through the anger phase of reacting to heartbreaking news, I was outside at recess with my 2nd graders.
